Oh man. The implications of it being the same book could be FASCINATING.
Oh Meela. I just wanna hug her now. I’ve still no better theory of how she and that Yuan boy are connected, though they look so much alike I’m thinking long-lost twin, alternate personality, or parallel universe self.
Kayla
I think most of us figure she’s just pasting her own face on his because it’s HER dream. Even long-lost twins wouldn’t have the same haircut a’la Holland and rain, ya know?
This makes a lot of sense! Either Yuen is Feral or Mal is Feral and the book is full of the memories, some how reaching Meela. Though until we see Feral’s bare leg we won’t know if he has a scar like Mal, therefore proving the theory Feral/Mal correct. Either way, he’s one of those boys and I really like the “secret code” theory.
No matter, we know Meela is slapping her face on Yuen since it is her dream. Now to figure out what Yuen really looks like (if we ever find out) and if Feral is him or Mal! Though the “could die” comment hints that perhaps that’s what happened to Yuen, hence why he’s suggesting it. That or he’s just saying that in reflection to all that’s happened to him.
But theory Yuen’s-memories-inside-a-book-and-Feral-is-Mal? I’m so for it. (Feral… (M)al (Fer)al. Both have -al. Though that might be to throw us for a loop)
As far as I understand, the ‘other Meela’ IS a boy. She just dreams him as herself because she doesn’t know who it is, so she puts on a face she knows well. She’s had two forms of dreams: flashbacks of herself with her parents and her brother, and then dreams of this unknown boy. As that journal is the same as Feral’s from (I think) page 111, a theory is that it is Feral as a child. He has no clan, no home, and no family. It may be why he empathizes with Meela and puts up with her.
I think this pretty much confirms Yuen has to be Feral. *breathes in*
I’ve been reading about the Mal vs Yuen is Feral thing through the comments and I’ve been wanting to kinda let my opinion out too (especially after having read the spoiler journal entry someone translated). I think people may be looking at things too literally about who looks like who IE: Yuen has brown hair it can’t be Feral he has BLACK hair. I think that because these are Feral’s memories that Meela has been having, he doesn’t imagine himself in the same way he imagines the other people around him. However, him and Meela seem to share similar experiences in their lifetime. I think Yuen looking similar to Meela isn’t a reincarnation thing, so much as it is Meela relates so well, she sees herself in place of someone who is ‘faceless’ in these sequences. Likewise, I think she sees Mal with some features of Feral simply because she is so removed from others at this point, Feral is the only one she’s really attached to at this point.
I also think Yuen’s timidness and cautious attitude reflects Feral more so than Mal, who is noted as being very reckless (and if the translated journal is to be believed, taking it to the extreme). However, we see Feral stalking the old man at night, opting to use a blow dart, trying to be sneaky etc, rather than just run in guns ablazing. As Yuen says here, like Meela he has no family, no clan, and no home, just like Feral. I think other people noticed that Yuen’s dad had a striking resemblance to Feral–I’m certain Terin is Feral’s father.
Now what I think happened was, as Mal continued to do more and more dangerous things such as absorbing the power of demons, perhaps he started going off the deep end. Maybe a fight between Mal and Feral, or some other event involving demons is how he lost his vocal cords and got torn up so bad before meeting Holland. There’s no way to tell when Feral got his red eye (it’s covered in the page Holland sees Feral for the first time, but that could be from the red eye or from the scar over his eye, given that those are two separate things, which they may or may not be), but I get the feeling perhaps he went down the same path in an effort to stop Mal, who was maybe progressively turning into a dangerous dude. Maybe the red eye thing has nothing to do with Mal? Although, I think Mal or Korin is the one who slaughters Meela’s family in her first dream sequence at the start of the comic. With Mal going down the path he started, I’m more inclined to believe it’s him. Why that would prevent Meela and her brother from going back to the clan, I can’t think of a reason (if it was Korin, maybe he took over that area too?).
What I want to know is how the old man connects to all of this! In his flashback of remembering Meela, we see her still with long hair, clutching onto an adult’s shirt, so I would think that indicates it was before the occurrence with her family and before they leave the clan, since it takes until after that before her brother lops off her hair. UGH I WANT TO KNOW WHAT’S GOING OOOOON
:D That pretty much sums up everything I think too.
And people draw paralells between Feral and Mal because they both like pears. The way I see it is that if Feral is Yuen, maybe he picked up to like pears too once Mal was killed (or whatever happened to him) just like many people who lose their dear ones think “Oh I remember how he used to that particular thing….” and they end up doing it themselves.
Very much agree. Another thought would be, maybe this power they have they can transmit some of their life energy into a person to heal them? Considering Meela is very much poisoned and they don’t have an antidote… Guess we will see!!
O.o My thoughts EXACTLY! (as one could read is the huuuge comic at the bottom of the previous page) The personality difference fo sho. Good comment! Good argument summery!
Ok so, recently everyone has been talking about the translated page of Feral’s notebook, where can I find the translated page? Not the gallery one that’s in that strange language. Thanks ^_^
I know that most of you actually think that Yuen and Feral are the same, thought it may be possible thought I am pretty sure that Meela and Yuen could be siblings or even the same person. Feral has a GREEN eye and a RED demon one. Yuen looks exactly as Meela but smaller, his eyes are golden and hair is brown.
Feral could have been the one that killed Meelas family ((taking a look back to how the crusty old man freaked out when he saw Meela with Feral))
Feral is still always acting like he didn’t knew Meela, atleast before the starting of the comic…
I guess this helps a bit ^^
They already said the fact that Meela and Yuen look the same doesn’t matter because Meela might just be imagining that they look the same. Anyway, I agree, I think Feral really may have killed her family after “sucking up energy” like he did a couple pages back and then had a lapse in sanity. My reason being is in her flashback “he” (the shadowy figure) cut his eye like how feral’s is scarred, and you’re right that explains why the guy freaked out so much.
Good points, but Yuen does point out how Mal doesn’t have his clan mark yet (page 118). Feral doesn’t have his clan mark either. Also, this whole dialogue here seems to imply that Yuen died… and I as far as I know, Feral is living.
I have serious doubts that Feral killed Meela’s family. For one thing, the silhouette of the guy who did eminates in utter evil… and in case you haven’t been reading, even when Feral used his demon-ish power/eye thing he didn’t look malicious. Not like that. He’s never looked malicious really. Just annoyed, frustrated, angry, surprised, and so on. Besides, Holland has known Feral since the were a lot younger, and I doubt that either of them would still be on good terms if he had ever gone down a road like that. And what’s this talk about eye scratch?? You can’t see anything BUT his eyes and the outline of his body. I’m fairly certain that Meela would be at least a little familiar with the guy who killed her kin. She might not fully recognize him or process who he was, but I think she would have a small inkling of ‘he looks… familiar for some strange reason’ in her mind at the sight of him. You don’t just forget something as traumatic as that.
When Meela had the dream where Korin killed Yuen’s dad, she woke up and though “wait, that guy! could he be….” I think Korin killed Meela’s family.
Then the old man told Meela to get away from “the bounty hunter.” The way I interpret that is you remember when Tannor said they couldn’t go back? Whoever killed their family probably hired people to look for them, so the old man was worried that if Meela’s survival and whereabouts got out, Feral could be hired to try and get her. As a bounty hunter, he takes jobs where he gets them. If the money was good enough…. at least at that point, now, he would take her and run. lolz
I see your point But I think Mal and yuen might just people we don’t about yet, and the old man is confusing me too! And remember when meela was going to the palace and she heard that jingling noise!?
Im kind of on doubt now, but i still think that Feral is Mal… I know thats not very important, but Mal’s hair looks more like Feral’s hair then Yuen’s does. I really wanted to see Mal’s eye color just to know if they’re green like Feral’s. But maybe Yuen’s appearance (that is exactly like Meela’s) its just to we know thats her in the dreams, and perhaps Yuen’s real appearance is just like Feral’s!
randomly, I think I just got a little delusional myself, and I saw this kid morph into Ieral and start talking to her, and we all know how perposterous that sounds since Feral is mute.
It might just be how the poison is affecting Meela, but it feels like she’s matured a LOT…and her face even looks like she’s a little older. But that might just be the lighting and the poison.
Either way, I really like this page. It’s kind of cool how Meela is doing that lucid dreaming that Holland suggested….sad that it has to be in the middle of a near-death experience!!!
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DON’T DIE, MEELA!!!!!
The top part of the page is cut off, right where the end of the pencil would be, so whatever writing is there is not showing. Clever on the part of the artists. Yuen might show her what he was writing later.
I wonder if next page he’ll tell her about the poison.
I don’t know why there’s so many comments about him being weird. ^_^” It sounds like one of those dreams, like if there’s a fire, sometimes people will start dreaming about fire, before realizing it’s happening in real life. So I think the change of subject at the end of the page is more about Meela than it is about him, because it’s basically a dream, so real life is probably intruding and twisting things around.
Startling, why would one die for having nothing, you die by doing nothing, she has survived. Apathy is death, worse than death, but well enough Meela has shown no Apathy, though this young boy does….
Yuen looked so innocent in this scene. His expression really does’nt suit what he’s saying. Its really Creepy…
I can just imagine him saying this like a child; all innocent sounding and whatnot which really only serves to make it all the more sinister.
Hey, he’s writing in invisible ink! 8D Or he was… Maybe he’s trying to play grim reaper with Meela. Trying to convince her life’s not worth living or something.
Is it just me..or does it look like she’s wearing Ferals white shirt? Has anyone else mentioned that. Like the one she wore that one time they were in the hotel and she made her own clothes from his. LOL
Omg..this is creepy made me sad. :< Hang in there Meela!
I KNOW WHO FERAL IS!!!!!!
Yuens brother, he was tall, got clawed by a demon, has green eyes and black hair, AND, has a reason to keep Yuen’s book!! It is him!! it is HIM!!!
117 thoughts on “Page 204”
yokomomochi
FIGHT IT! YOU CAN’T DIE, MEELA! NOOOOO!!!
She-Griffin
I agree! Don’t die, Meela!
Heh, the dialogue for this page came out so differently than what I thought it might say during the livestream. Love it!
And… that book is definitely the same as Feral’s book…
Ashen
Oh man. The implications of it being the same book could be FASCINATING.
Oh Meela. I just wanna hug her now. I’ve still no better theory of how she and that Yuan boy are connected, though they look so much alike I’m thinking long-lost twin, alternate personality, or parallel universe self.
Kayla
I think most of us figure she’s just pasting her own face on his because it’s HER dream. Even long-lost twins wouldn’t have the same haircut a’la Holland and rain, ya know?
Fallenskye
Right now my current theory is that Feral is Mal, and that Yuen somehow died and Feral took the book as a memento. owo It makes the most sense to me.
AHHH TWILIGHT ZOOOONE–Yuen, don`t say that DD:
iCleft
it’s my theory, too :D
and the weird letters coul be an secret language that that the two boys came up with…
can’t wait to find out! ^^
Guiled-Dragon
This makes a lot of sense! Either Yuen is Feral or Mal is Feral and the book is full of the memories, some how reaching Meela. Though until we see Feral’s bare leg we won’t know if he has a scar like Mal, therefore proving the theory Feral/Mal correct. Either way, he’s one of those boys and I really like the “secret code” theory.
No matter, we know Meela is slapping her face on Yuen since it is her dream. Now to figure out what Yuen really looks like (if we ever find out) and if Feral is him or Mal! Though the “could die” comment hints that perhaps that’s what happened to Yuen, hence why he’s suggesting it. That or he’s just saying that in reflection to all that’s happened to him.
But theory Yuen’s-memories-inside-a-book-and-Feral-is-Mal? I’m so for it. (Feral… (M)al (Fer)al. Both have -al. Though that might be to throw us for a loop)
Angeliclily
O_O;; That turned dark REAL fast.
VickyLynn
Ikr!
Jae
…yup.
Alvara101
Cripey… 0_0
Chelsea.S
Woo-hoo go reincarnation theory
Alvara101
read the next pages and find out U R WRONG!!!
Spacetired
Whatttt!! D: NOOOO MEEELAAAA
Is this other meela, like the dark side? o_O
VickyLynn
Lol Meela’s morbid twin? O.o
Megan
As far as I understand, the ‘other Meela’ IS a boy. She just dreams him as herself because she doesn’t know who it is, so she puts on a face she knows well. She’s had two forms of dreams: flashbacks of herself with her parents and her brother, and then dreams of this unknown boy. As that journal is the same as Feral’s from (I think) page 111, a theory is that it is Feral as a child. He has no clan, no home, and no family. It may be why he empathizes with Meela and puts up with her.
ayashi
Aha, Meela not only discovers she is a eunich, but is instructed to DIE BY HER RICH SEXUAL DISCOVERY~~
I dig the jump from action to hints of humor to straight up dark. Awesome versatility by our dear author!
Wolfeth
WHOAAAAAH MEELA!!! Dun die! Fight it! He’s evil, just trying to get into your head!
Oh, wait.
Dudette
THIS COMIC CANNOT UPDATE FAST ENOUGH! Dx Suspense killing me!!
Rogue Android
Agreed!
Callista70
I hope it will last XD
VickyLynn
Morbid child…. isn’t he….
DreamBoyMal
Creepy Yuen is wonderfully creepy. XD
VickyLynn
Love love LOVE the back ground… even though there isn’t one. But it doesn’t look like it lacks one. It just fits so perfectly :}
Lauren
My gosh… this sounds like something out of a horror film! No Meela! Don’t go toward the light! (Er, light past Holland’s little flame-y thing!)
Spizzy
I think this pretty much confirms Yuen has to be Feral. *breathes in*
I’ve been reading about the Mal vs Yuen is Feral thing through the comments and I’ve been wanting to kinda let my opinion out too (especially after having read the spoiler journal entry someone translated). I think people may be looking at things too literally about who looks like who IE: Yuen has brown hair it can’t be Feral he has BLACK hair. I think that because these are Feral’s memories that Meela has been having, he doesn’t imagine himself in the same way he imagines the other people around him. However, him and Meela seem to share similar experiences in their lifetime. I think Yuen looking similar to Meela isn’t a reincarnation thing, so much as it is Meela relates so well, she sees herself in place of someone who is ‘faceless’ in these sequences. Likewise, I think she sees Mal with some features of Feral simply because she is so removed from others at this point, Feral is the only one she’s really attached to at this point.
I also think Yuen’s timidness and cautious attitude reflects Feral more so than Mal, who is noted as being very reckless (and if the translated journal is to be believed, taking it to the extreme). However, we see Feral stalking the old man at night, opting to use a blow dart, trying to be sneaky etc, rather than just run in guns ablazing. As Yuen says here, like Meela he has no family, no clan, and no home, just like Feral. I think other people noticed that Yuen’s dad had a striking resemblance to Feral–I’m certain Terin is Feral’s father.
Now what I think happened was, as Mal continued to do more and more dangerous things such as absorbing the power of demons, perhaps he started going off the deep end. Maybe a fight between Mal and Feral, or some other event involving demons is how he lost his vocal cords and got torn up so bad before meeting Holland. There’s no way to tell when Feral got his red eye (it’s covered in the page Holland sees Feral for the first time, but that could be from the red eye or from the scar over his eye, given that those are two separate things, which they may or may not be), but I get the feeling perhaps he went down the same path in an effort to stop Mal, who was maybe progressively turning into a dangerous dude. Maybe the red eye thing has nothing to do with Mal? Although, I think Mal or Korin is the one who slaughters Meela’s family in her first dream sequence at the start of the comic. With Mal going down the path he started, I’m more inclined to believe it’s him. Why that would prevent Meela and her brother from going back to the clan, I can’t think of a reason (if it was Korin, maybe he took over that area too?).
What I want to know is how the old man connects to all of this! In his flashback of remembering Meela, we see her still with long hair, clutching onto an adult’s shirt, so I would think that indicates it was before the occurrence with her family and before they leave the clan, since it takes until after that before her brother lops off her hair. UGH I WANT TO KNOW WHAT’S GOING OOOOON
Avian
:D That pretty much sums up everything I think too.
And people draw paralells between Feral and Mal because they both like pears. The way I see it is that if Feral is Yuen, maybe he picked up to like pears too once Mal was killed (or whatever happened to him) just like many people who lose their dear ones think “Oh I remember how he used to that particular thing….” and they end up doing it themselves.
DreamBoyMal
Feral eating pears in memory of Mal…hmm. I actually think I kind of like that idea!
London
long comment is long. lol. but I agree more or less :3
Norbeam
Very much agree. Another thought would be, maybe this power they have they can transmit some of their life energy into a person to heal them? Considering Meela is very much poisoned and they don’t have an antidote… Guess we will see!!
Norbeam
Meant to add on that they may be able to heal them and maybe Mal had to do that to Yuen for some reason or another. /shrug
iwaterbear
People think mal is feral not just because of pears but the whole demon power thing written in the letter.
Shinjite Florana
O.o My thoughts EXACTLY! (as one could read is the huuuge comic at the bottom of the previous page) The personality difference fo sho. Good comment! Good argument summery!
AngelicAlchemist
I agree too ^_^
BTW, I love your Inuyasha avatar <3
Tybel
O_O good!
MoonChild419
Ok so, recently everyone has been talking about the translated page of Feral’s notebook, where can I find the translated page? Not the gallery one that’s in that strange language. Thanks ^_^
Kira
One of the previous pages (either the last one or the one before that…?) had a comment in it where someone translated it fully. C:
AKiraMoon
I know that most of you actually think that Yuen and Feral are the same, thought it may be possible thought I am pretty sure that Meela and Yuen could be siblings or even the same person. Feral has a GREEN eye and a RED demon one. Yuen looks exactly as Meela but smaller, his eyes are golden and hair is brown.
Feral could have been the one that killed Meelas family ((taking a look back to how the crusty old man freaked out when he saw Meela with Feral))
Feral is still always acting like he didn’t knew Meela, atleast before the starting of the comic…
I guess this helps a bit ^^
DawnStar
They already said the fact that Meela and Yuen look the same doesn’t matter because Meela might just be imagining that they look the same. Anyway, I agree, I think Feral really may have killed her family after “sucking up energy” like he did a couple pages back and then had a lapse in sanity. My reason being is in her flashback “he” (the shadowy figure) cut his eye like how feral’s is scarred, and you’re right that explains why the guy freaked out so much.
Kayla has Mint
Good points, but Yuen does point out how Mal doesn’t have his clan mark yet (page 118). Feral doesn’t have his clan mark either. Also, this whole dialogue here seems to imply that Yuen died… and I as far as I know, Feral is living.
I have serious doubts that Feral killed Meela’s family. For one thing, the silhouette of the guy who did eminates in utter evil… and in case you haven’t been reading, even when Feral used his demon-ish power/eye thing he didn’t look malicious. Not like that. He’s never looked malicious really. Just annoyed, frustrated, angry, surprised, and so on. Besides, Holland has known Feral since the were a lot younger, and I doubt that either of them would still be on good terms if he had ever gone down a road like that. And what’s this talk about eye scratch?? You can’t see anything BUT his eyes and the outline of his body. I’m fairly certain that Meela would be at least a little familiar with the guy who killed her kin. She might not fully recognize him or process who he was, but I think she would have a small inkling of ‘he looks… familiar for some strange reason’ in her mind at the sight of him. You don’t just forget something as traumatic as that.
KaelinaLuvsLomaris
When Meela had the dream where Korin killed Yuen’s dad, she woke up and though “wait, that guy! could he be….” I think Korin killed Meela’s family.
Then the old man told Meela to get away from “the bounty hunter.” The way I interpret that is you remember when Tannor said they couldn’t go back? Whoever killed their family probably hired people to look for them, so the old man was worried that if Meela’s survival and whereabouts got out, Feral could be hired to try and get her. As a bounty hunter, he takes jobs where he gets them. If the money was good enough…. at least at that point, now, he would take her and run. lolz
iwaterbear
I see your point But I think Mal and yuen might just people we don’t about yet, and the old man is confusing me too! And remember when meela was going to the palace and she heard that jingling noise!?
Gigi
Spoiler journal entry? 8D I WANNA READ IT!!!! :D
Renny
The vote incentive is rather peculiar too…
IrondragonMetals
so tired… but so happy to see the update. now i’m gonna go pass out on the couch again. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Dodi
Im kind of on doubt now, but i still think that Feral is Mal… I know thats not very important, but Mal’s hair looks more like Feral’s hair then Yuen’s does. I really wanted to see Mal’s eye color just to know if they’re green like Feral’s. But maybe Yuen’s appearance (that is exactly like Meela’s) its just to we know thats her in the dreams, and perhaps Yuen’s real appearance is just like Feral’s!
I don’t know, my head is sppining right now.
heilix
MEELAA DON’T DIE!!! YOU ARE SOMEBODY! *o*
wow, what a dark speech… o.o
love the back ground. <3 :D
Dodi
Help?
Renna
Okayyy…… Dont die meela! Yuen is CREEPY!
Lee
I love this comic.
MarkHalo
randomly, I think I just got a little delusional myself, and I saw this kid morph into Ieral and start talking to her, and we all know how perposterous that sounds since Feral is mute.
Blue-Starr
It might just be how the poison is affecting Meela, but it feels like she’s matured a LOT…and her face even looks like she’s a little older. But that might just be the lighting and the poison.
Either way, I really like this page. It’s kind of cool how Meela is doing that lucid dreaming that Holland suggested….sad that it has to be in the middle of a near-death experience!!!
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DON’T DIE, MEELA!!!!!
Maxtr
in the first panal there is no writting in the book and he’s holding a pensil….?
KaelinaLuvsLomaris
The top part of the page is cut off, right where the end of the pencil would be, so whatever writing is there is not showing. Clever on the part of the artists. Yuen might show her what he was writing later.
Maxtr
ahh, i see that now.
Foxy
That kid is creepy o.O ” * no emotion on face* ”Maybe you could just die.
xD But yay<3 I wants mooroe!
KC
LIVE MEELA!!!!
Amber
D-X That little boy is evil or something, now! D-8 What the heck!!!
That thing what comes from all that bad
“Maybe you could die.”
… Well that just came out of nowhere.
Asj
I wonder if next page he’ll tell her about the poison.
I don’t know why there’s so many comments about him being weird. ^_^” It sounds like one of those dreams, like if there’s a fire, sometimes people will start dreaming about fire, before realizing it’s happening in real life. So I think the change of subject at the end of the page is more about Meela than it is about him, because it’s basically a dream, so real life is probably intruding and twisting things around.
13thprotector
Startling, why would one die for having nothing, you die by doing nothing, she has survived. Apathy is death, worse than death, but well enough Meela has shown no Apathy, though this young boy does….
vyanni krace ~lingering sorrow~
Yuen looked so innocent in this scene. His expression really does’nt suit what he’s saying. Its really Creepy…
I can just imagine him saying this like a child; all innocent sounding and whatnot which really only serves to make it all the more sinister.
songstress
I did NOT see that coming at all. Very nice twist!
Kayla
That’s right Meela! Don’t go toward the light!
Icesky
D: Meela, you aren’t a nobody <3 Can't wait for the next chapter, it's just so exciting!
Sarah
Can I just say that I fucking love Meela’s new hair?
AllinahPony
Hey, he’s writing in invisible ink! 8D Or he was… Maybe he’s trying to play grim reaper with Meela. Trying to convince her life’s not worth living or something.
Bree
Is it just me..or does it look like she’s wearing Ferals white shirt? Has anyone else mentioned that. Like the one she wore that one time they were in the hotel and she made her own clothes from his. LOL
Omg..this is creepy made me sad. :< Hang in there Meela!
Mewenn
Ooh, creepy. I really love how she sees herself and knows it’s someone else. I bet this is feral.
Fozzymillow
Argue against it, Meela! Reason with yourself.
rozline
AAAAAHHH!!! i get it! if it is feral with meela’s face, the scars on his nack are where he tried to die by killing himself!!!!! some one saveed him!!!
AKiraMoon
I KNOW WHO FERAL IS!!!!!!
Yuens brother, he was tall, got clawed by a demon, has green eyes and black hair, AND, has a reason to keep Yuen’s book!! It is him!! it is HIM!!!
KaelinaLuvsLomaris
Except that that is Mal, Yuen’s best friend, not his brother. Yuen doesn’t have a brother.
AKiraMoon
wow my mistake, but still it has to be him. I can feel it :D